Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Choices:Dreams

I’ve made choices in my life to live it for me
Live it for my friends and my family
To live it for God most importantly,
But to follow my dreams ultimately.
I will not be pressured, fooled, or coerced into being,
What society wants me to be,
What friends deem as important
but happen to be unimportant to me
I don’t want to be in relationship just to be in one
Which I’m watching some do,
Or to finally feel that needy void inside
And hear those “I love you’s.”
I will not be the girl desperate for a fairytale life
That she picks whomever to make her his wife.
I know that girl, she will never be me pushing for something
That doesn’t happen organically.
I believe in love, love of thy self,
Love of God before anything else.
I believe in pursuing what your heart has always longed for,
To fulfill your destiny, your personal legend,
And little more.
I’m on that path, of becoming who I want to be,
Making myself proud of me,
Waking up with a purpose,
A meaning, my truth,
That will only happen, if I spread my wings
And allow my dreams to actually come true.
So the questions of who are you dating and who are you seeing?
Will be answered with I’m dating myself and seeing god in all of the things that I do,
I’ve been given this time to strengthen the love for myself, and a vision of my destiny
Which, I’m pursuing happily.
Happiness, faith, and a great life will lead you to loves open doors,
For those concerned no need to question anymore.
My day will come, with a love so sweet,
It will be our destiny to one day meet.
Happiness is hard to attain,
Hard to maintain,
But I’m practicing it right now,
Practice makes perfect and it should be done so before those vows.
I’ve made a list of those things important to me,
And I can not strive for any of them until
I’m where I want to be.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Mr. President

I know that you probably get this email, these comments, from thousands maybe even millions of Americans everyday because no matter what we look like, what our educational background consist of, we are all struggling. I'm an African-American female that made it my duty to not rest on my laurels, I received a Bachelors Degree in Organizational Sociology from UC Davis in 2003 and more recently a Masters Degree in Mass Communications and Media Studies from Howard University in 2007. Almost two years later, I can not find suitable or permanent employment. I thought that higher education promised a brighter future? I thought that fortitude and hard-work opened up the door for a promising, yet challenging life? Isn't that what Republican's and more specifically White leaders and Politicians preach? This is not a race issue it's a people issue so I digress. No doors have opened for me, not even cracks for me to slide through. I just want to know, when will the young people, in my age group, the under 30's the under 35's get to enjoy a little bit of what our parents enjoyed after leaving college? We have left college so crippled in debt and having to accept jobs that we are grossly overqualified for, just to stop creditor harassment. Or in my case, I'm not even able to receive a job that I am grossly overqualified for because people my parents age and my grandparents age have had to swallow their pride and take the menial jobs. The types of jobs I am applying for are with companies that are looking for workers with specializations and years and years of experience. Well, if you are in your twenties, and a recent graduate, the years and years of experience does not exist. The point is, we are trying to take responsibility, which is why we went to school, held down jobs, interned and took out loans to receive jobs that would initially pay them off but that is not happening for us; yet we are still asked to keep our credit score high so we can buy a house, (not until we are 50 years old at this rate) get a job, (since companies feel as if good people ALWAYS pay their bills. Well good people would pay their bills if they had steady employment) and prepare for a brighter tomorrow. Well, I can't very well ask you for a job (although I will since I'm in desperate need of one and facing eviction) but I can ask you to please stop the cycle of suffering. Allow a grace period for people in financial straights were their credit isn't jeopardized when they are out of work. Make it so student loan debt is decreased for those that get a higher education. Those with higher education are a huge part of the contributing and motivated work force and a financial break for us means more people pursing skilled work and skilled education. Skilled education helps America as well as the world. We need a financial break and we need to stop being penalized for every miss step we make when in this type of economy it cannot be avoided. Please, I not only ask for myself, but I ask for all of us in the same boat. It doesn’t matter if you are White, Black, Latino, Asian, old, young, educated or non-educated or in between. My dad has worked in the car dealership industry for thirty years and was laid-off in 2007. He has yet to find a job. He has taught me the work ethic that I feel is so important. No matter what, do a great job and help other. He has a high school education and he is 60 years old. Do it for him because companies wont even give him a second look despite his years and years of experience. We need help. Thank You.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Curly

I don’t need a lot of friends,
Or that brand new benz
All I need is you
Curly haired little you
Brown skinned King
The star in all of my dreams
Talent unparalleled
You make me stop and smell the fresh air
Do I believe in happy endings,
Fantasies coming true?
I never did until the day I met you..

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Time will Reveal...Love

Did I mean anything to you? Did you ever wonder what could have been? Do I sit here alone in my thoughts dreaming about you to know end? Is it an obsession, failure to move on or quest for something so real? Give me a sign that I was valued that our relationship was a big deal. Why does it have to be so hard, why not seize the day? There's know telling what will happen tomorrow, missing the chance to say all we have to say. There's a secret that I believe in and god that I trust, And there's a strong will within me that is certain that I must, Pray a little longer, Strive to be a better me, And allow you to go on your endless journey. If that means that our time was sweet but short and oh so meaningful, I'll keep those memories with me because they were remarkably beautiful. Time will reveal...